The Central Intelligence agency has recently released thousands of highly classified UFO documents to the public, and UFO hunters and Ufologists are going crazy as they list through the never-before-seen materials which could drastically change how we look at the UFO phenomenon.
According to the CIA’s library:
This collection catalogs CIA information on this subject from the 1940s through the early 1990s. Most of the documents concern CIA cables reporting unsubstantiated UFO sightings in the foreign press and intra-Agency memos about how the Agency handled public inquiries about UFO sightings. For the most recent CIA information on UFOs, see the article “CIA’s Role in the Study of UFOs, 1947-90” at the Center for the Study of Intelligence website (https://www.cia.gov/library/center-for-the-study-of-intelligence/index.html). The article is located in On-line Publications under the “Studies in Intelligence” section, specifically semi-annual Edition #1, 1997.
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Among the numerous documents found in the vast UFO archives of the Central Intelligence Agency, there are a number of sinister-looking images of mysterious unidentified flying objects and very detailed reports of sightings all around the planet.
The CIA said: “We’ve decided to highlight a few documents both skeptics and believers will find interesting.” One report says: “Less than 100 reasonably credible reports remains ‘unexplainable’ at this time. It is recommended that CIA surveillance is continued. “It is strongly urged, however, that no reports of CIA interest or concern reach the press or public.
Interestingly, in recent years, a number of governmental agencies have come out of the dark and disclosed a number of images and documents which directly imply that our civilization isn’t the only one in the known universe.
According to a report from the Federal Bureau of Investigations, our planet has even been visited by ‘beings’ that belong to another dimension.
The official link from the FBI vault can be found here: CIA UFO
The special agent of the FBI, a lieutenant colonel whose identity, remained anonymous because of “national security” gather numerous data on the UFO phenomena after interviewing and studying the phenomena for years.
According to reports and “Declassified” documents, we have been visited by numbs extraterrestrial species, some of these, are not only from other planets but from other dimensions. Some of these beings originate from an ethereal plane coexistent with our physical universe. These “entities”, which could “materialize” on our planet appeared as giant translucent figures. It seems that we have entered a new era where governmental agencies simply cannot suppress their studies and ‘classified’ document about Alien Life and the UFO phenomenon.
While we still approach some of these sightings and reports with a degree of skepticism, we have to admit that some of them are anything but ordinary and it will take an open mind to fully understand what the reports of the CIA and FBI are really describing.
One thing is sure, it is very unlikely that we are the only intelligent beings inhabiting the universe. But as the great Carl Sagan once said, “Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence,” and it might just be that these documents are in fact, the extraordinary pieces of evidence we have been waiting for since the first UFO’s in modern times were reported.
“The universe is a pretty big place. If it’s just us, seems like an awful waste of space.”
― Carl Sagan
You can access the declassified CIA documents by clicking here.
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Hi I’m Jamie and I’m just a guy who had a Kundalini Awakening on December 5th, 2011.
After that night I made a promise to myself that as long as I remained here completing this journey with my wonderful wife, that I would try my hardest to awaken as many souls as I could before leaving and at the bare minimum peek the interest of many so that one day in the near future this world can become what it should be “A beautiful learning center for the soul.” My wife and childhood sweetheart, Shannon, is what you would call an old soul. She was present during my awakening and has her own unique perspective on these things. We are the mirrors of each other’s souls and her perspective can be found here. Awakening Our Truth is our labor of love and a shared experience for us all. We are all one, it’s not just some cool saying. There is only One and we are all projections of that one. If you are reading this, it is probably a good assumption that you are prepared to take the next step in your spiritual journey.
Here is a little history of my life. At the age of 10, I met a girl who would someday be my wife; her name is Shannon. I knew from the moment that I laid my eyes upon her that we would share most of our lives together. This was my first experience with the divine connection, this feeling of Knowing. It was a feeling of such strength, there was no questioning it. It felt like it was meant to be and even though, my best friend asked her out before I could, they eventually broke up and I began seeing her sometime later. I know, I know, you’re not supposed to date your buddy’s ex-girlfriend, but it was meant to be and I knew it, besides I saw her first! Haha. We dated off and on throughout middle school and high school. I remember the last time we broke up. It was as if we knew we were supposed to be together but we were not ready. We looked at each other and kissed goodbye for what would be our last breakup kiss….. cont. here.
There is some misunderstanding going on about Illuminati Singers and New World Order.
Illuminati = The Enlightened Ones
Illuminati – The never ending battle of good and evil. Helping you become aware or suppressing the truth.
Light – Higher Illuminati, Enlightened People trying to spread the truth and help others become enlightened.
“Service to Others”
Dark – Illuminati, Enlightened People trying to use their knowledge for power and control of the people not enlightened and keep them ignorant to the truth.
“Service to Self”
I’m glad we got that straight now we can move forward without any confusion.
You can tell when you listen to the words of the songs, The symbolism is mocking the Dark side of Illuminati that used to use the symbolism to hide their knowledge, just the fact that they do it makes people question whats going on making them become more aware.
This battle between Dark and Light has been going on since the beginning of duality.
If you would like me to add anything to this please let me know your thoughts.
also egyptian symbolim is not always synonymous with the illuminati….sometimes its just egyptian symbolism…
the over saturation of people saying illuminati this and illuminati that is blinding motherfuckers to the reality of it all.
which is economic and mental slavery. which again symbolism and art trying to enlighten people are the exact opposite of illuminati agenda.
if anything they would want the world to not even know they exist.
all it takes is common sense to figure this out…..but people are so easily duped and so quick to cry wolf about everything these day……. the evil people that control this world have taken the gift of people having access to so much information these days and found a way to control it by just dulling motherfuckers senses to it.
just like how everytime something tragic happen in america these days people are saying it was a false flag op or a setup of some sort….people crying wolf so much that when the real thing happens its not gonna be taken seriously.
over saturation in this sense is a new tactic and trend i have notice that is just as, if not more dangerous than the others….
the only thing worse than someone being blind is them thinking that they can see but being more blind that ever.
Do you wish to remain in a negative world? Then we will not reinforce that negativity.
You see, this is a very interesting paradoxical use of power. The idea is that many people on your planet have a very strong control of information. They have, first and foremost, used that control of information to make it appear as if they actually control more than they do. So the idea is that when individuals, and again it does not mean that you should not be aware that individuals may have negative intentions, but when many individuals go to the extremes of starting to look into what you call “conspiracy theories”, and they assign these powers, these abilities to do the things that you are all afraid they can do to these people, you are thus then GIVING THEM THAT ABILITY. So, the great “joke” from those people attempting to give you that impression is that the people that are attempting to be whistleblowers are actually their greatest advertisers. Because they make people believe that they actually have the ability to do more than they do. That’s the joke.
So lighten up on yourselves. Don’t give them the power, and you will shift your vibration to a parallel reality in which they don’t even exist eventually. That’s how you “change the world”. You don’t change the world you’re in, you change yourself, through your actions, through your knowingness, through your energy, through your being, through your behaviours. And you shift yourself to a parallel world that is already more reflective of the change that you have made in yourself.
beachdrifter said: You cannot be enlightened, and trying to control people at the same time. Those states of consciousness are mutually exclusive.
Me…. Thank you for your input, I was trying to keep the beginning of the post simple. It was directed at the people reading, that are not aware of the difference. Know they now there is a difference and I’m glad you pointed that out. Thank you
Light workers and Dark Workers have an agenda one pulls you towards the light, the other tries to remove you from it. This is the battle for your soul, that so many have talked about………
HOLY SHIT…..I JUST REALIZED…… I’M A FUCKING FALLEN ANGEL!!!!!
Like everything else in life, we are energetic beings.
All minerals, plants, animals, liquids and objects are products of an endless array of cells which emit energy. And what is within each cell? Protons, neutrons and electrons, which are all composed of sub-atomic particles which are pure energy.
Therefore, everything we see in this universe is at its root energy that evolves, changes and flows. That includes us as human beings. For this reason, it is not too far-fetched to think that within our own bodies we have areas that possess more condensed energy than others.
When the energy within our bodies is too imbalanced due to bad habits, stress, unacknowledged feelings and thought patterns, we get sick and we suffer – it’s as simple as that.
This is where the importance of chakra balancing comes into play. In traditional Indian thought our bodies possess seven different energy centers that are subject to blockages according to our lifestyle habits. When our energy centers are blocked or misaligned we feel heavy, ill and emotionally imbalanced.
In fact, if you’ve come to this article chances are that you are unconsciously attracted to “cleaning” or emptying an energy blockage within your body which is preventing you from living a centered life.
The Importance of Chakra Balancing In Everyday Life
I’ve never personally liked the word “chakra” because I’ve been conditioned to associate it with quasi-science and “woo-woo” new age thought. But whether you like using the word “chakra” or perhaps “meridians” or “energy centers,” it is undeniable that we are all electric beings by nature. Simply dragging your feet across a carpet and then touching something metal will show you that.
In recent years however, I’ve come to open myself to chakra balancing, and have managed to look beyond the fog of disparagement it has been shrouded in. It’s a really refreshing feeling being proven wrong about something, and I can definitely say that learning the secrets of chakra balancing has improved the quality of my life immensely.
But don’t worry: learning how to balance your chakras is by no means some kind of “esoteric” or complicated art. It simply requires sensitivity, introspection and a dedication to your well-being; all of which I can help you with in this article.
Simply reading through each energy center below will help you to determine which of the seven chakras within you are the most “stuffy” and imbalanced. You can then read the accompanying forms of chakra balancing techniques specific to each energy center.
1. Root Chakra
Sitting at the very base of your spine (or tailbone), the root chakra is responsible for the following feelings and sensations:
If balanced, you will feel grounded, safe, secure and stable in your life.
If imbalanced, you will feel disconnected from yourself and other people and worried about basic needs (money, food, shelter).
Physically you might be suffering from eating disorders (obesity, anorexia, bulimia), arthritis, cold hands and feet, leg and feet problems, and digestive problems.
What you can do:
Connect with the energy of the earth.
Go for regular walks, strolls or jogs.
Walk with bare feet on a patch of grass.
Sit underneath a tree with your back to the trunk.
Get enough vitamin D by spending time in the sun each day.
Eat root foods that have had direct contact with the earth such as ginger, carrots, potatoes, turnips, radish and beetroot.
Consciously spend time with other people. Put down your phone, laptop, book or other distraction and allow yourself to experience the joy of being with another human being.
Explore your core wound and the impact this has on your daily life.
Wear red colors.
Visualize a red stream of light extending from your legs and feet deep into the earth.
Aromatherapy scent: Rosemary, Cedar, Ginger, Sandalwood and Cloves.
Power stone: Jasper, Carnelian, Obsidian, Bloodstone, stone Smokey Quartz.
2. Sacral Chakra
Located just below your bellybutton, the sacral chakra is responsible for the following feelings and sensations:
If balanced, you will feel creative, committed, sexually vibrant and energetic.
If imbalanced, you will feel emotionally repressed, sexually suppressed, energetically lethargic, unimaginative and impotent.
Physically you might be suffering from menstrual problems, lower back pain, kidney dysfunction, urinary problems, ovarian cysts or prostrate issues.
What you can do:
Sit by a stream of water.
Make regular time for sexual activity (weekly).
Stretch your lower back through yoga or traditional exercise techniques (i.e. cat stretch, sphinx pose, legs up against the wall, etc.).
Belly dance or rotate your hips around in a circle.
Wear orange (the vibration of this color is linked with the sacral chakra).
Drink a lot of water.
Eat almonds, melons, strawberries, oranges, coconut and mandarin (said to help sacral chakra issues).
Power stone: Citrine, Amber, Hematite, Red Jasper, Orange Calcite.
3. Solar Plexus Chakra
Located just below the rib cage and just above the navel, the solar plexus chakra is responsible for the following feelings and sensations:
If balanced, you will feel self-loving, compassionate, confident and assertive.
If imbalanced, you will feel critical, judgmental, self-resenting and fearful.
Physically, you might be suffering from high blood pressure, chronic fatigue, diabetes, stomach ulcers, pancreas and gallbladder issues, and weight problems.
What you can do:
Explore your mental traps.
Work on breathing properly (i.e. not from your chest, but from your stomach).
Sit in the sun (fire is the element of the solar plexus chakra).
Discover your core beliefs.
Repeat affirmations to yourself daily (e.g. “I radiate love,” “I embrace the person I am”).
Wear yellow (the vibration of this color is linked with the solar plexus).
Do something that makes you scared but brings you courage.
Eat whole grains, organic yogurt and cheese, and spices such as turmeric, ginger, cumin and fennel.
Aromatherapy scent: Rosewood, myrrh, frankincense and sandalwood.
Power stone: Tiger’s eye, citrine, rhodochrosite, yellow tourmaline andmalachite.
4. Heart Chakra
Located right in the center of the chest (where the heart is), the heart chakra is responsible for the following feelings and sensations:
If balanced, you will feel love, empathy and compassion for all living beings, you will be able to understand others deeply beyond their words and actions, as well as feeling forgiveness and gratitude.
If imbalanced, you will feel anger, resentment, jealousy, hatred, fear and loneliness.
Physically, you might be suffering from upper back problems, asthma, heart problems, allergies and breast issues.
What you can do:
Learn to enjoy your solitude.
Practice the taken-for-granted virtue of gratitude by being thankful for the small things in your life each day.
Learn to breathe deeply.
Allow the breeze to sweep through your hair and feel in on your skin (air is the element associated with the heart chakra).
Look at people in terms of what you love rather than what you hate.
Express your thankfulness by doing something kind or thoughtful for others.
Explore different ways of forgiving people who have wronged you (perhaps by learning how to forgive yourself first).
Wear green (the vibration of this color is associated with the heart chakra).
Practice the affirmations, “I forgive myself and I forgive others,” “I am loving and I am loved,” “Each day I am blessed.”
Aromatherapy scent: Lavender, Hyssop, Chamomile, Ylang Ylang and Neroli.
Power stone: Jade, malachite, emerald, green tourmaline and rose quartz. 5. Throat Chakra
Located right in the center of the throat, the throat chakra is responsible for the following feelings and sensations:
If balanced, you will be able to freely express yourself clearly both verbally and non-verbally. You will also be a good listener who assertively expresses your own truth without repression. Additionally, you might find people seeking you out for advice and moral support.
If imbalanced, you will feel dishonest with yourself and as though you are not living up to your potential. People might consider you “flaky” or “untrustworthy” as you find it hard to speak for yourself. On the other hand, you might be very opinionated, dogmatic and aggressive.
Physically, you might suffer from earaches, sinus infections, thyroid problems, upper back and neck issues, and teeth problems.
What you can do:
Find an appropriate form of catharsis that allows you to express yourself, e.g. painting, running, writing, singing, dancing, creating, building or even screaming.
Learn to acknowledge your feelings and experience them without judgement, e.g. if you feel excited, allow yourself to feel 100% excited. If you feel angry, allow yourself to feel 100% angry. No emotion is innately “good” or “bad.”
Sing a song to yourself or hum.
Watch a funny movie or stand-up comedy show and laugh.
Practice assertiveness, or if you are normally aggressive and vocal, practice silently listening to others.
Actively explore what brings you meaning and fills you with passion in life (you might be an artist, an innovator, a gardener, a nurturer, a scientist, etc.). Find ways of bringing your passion into your everyday life.
Honestly explore your feelings towards yourself, other people and your current life. What are you holding back and being inauthentic about?
Wear the color blue (the vibration of this color is associated with the throat chakra).
Look up at the sky and allow your mind to clear.
Eat fruits and vegetable with high water content such as watermelon, cucumber, berries and celery.
Aromatherapy scent: Jasmine, rose, ylang ylang and frankincense.
Power stone: Sodalite, lapis lazuli, blue lace agate, amazonite and turquoise.
6. Third Eye Chakra
Located in the center of the forehead, the third eye chakra is responsible for the following feelings and sensations:
If balanced, you will feel clear, focused, receptive and insightful.
If imbalanced, you will feel mentally foggy, emotionally unstable, daydreamy and unfocused.
Physically, you might suffer from hormone imbalance, eyestrain, headaches and migraines, insomnia, depression, panic and dizziness.
What you can do:
Cut out processed food from your diet.
Eat raw, unprocessed fruit, vegetables, grain and legumes.
Establish a regular sleep routine and get a minimum of 7 hours sleep.
Eliminate distractions from your life (e.g. too much television, social commitments, procrastination food, etc.).
Explore EFT tapping.
Take natural supplements such as damiana, gingko biloba and l-theanine for enhanced brain function and relaxation.
Learn to sit silently every day without any form of stimulation (e.g. phone, TV, laptop, book, newspaper). You could formally practice meditation, or simply relax outside in nature.
Wear the color indigo (the vibration of this color is associated with the third eye chakra).
Work on sharpening and trusting your intuition.
Eat nuts, dark chocolate and berries such as blueberries and raspberries.
Aromatherapy scent: Cypress, patchouli, vetiver, rosemary and juniper.
Power stone: Amethyst, purple fluorite, clear quartz, blue aventurine and merlinite.
7. Crown Chakra
The crown chakra is located right at the top of the head and is responsible for the following feelings and sensations:
If balanced, you will feel grounded in the present moment, spiritually in-tune with the rest of existence, and you will deeply trust your intuitive wisdom.
If imbalanced, you will feel lost, resentful towards “god,” aimless, depressed and you will suffer from black-and-white thinking. You might also possess a “god complex” in which you believe you’re better than everyone else.
Physically, you might suffer from light-sensitivity, fibromyalgia, existential depression and degenerative diseases.
What you can do:
Explore spiritual thought from ancient philosophies to modern ideas.
Immerse yourself in the natural world. Get out of your brick box and into the vibrancy of life.
Explore your shadow self and the way it impacts your life with someone you trust.
Ask yourself these 6 vital questions.
Read into the lives and experiences of various spiritual teachers you respect.
Learn to separate who “you” are from what you experience. This is known as “witnessing” or “observing” what you think and feel and can be done constantly throughout the day or through formal practices like meditation.
Wear violet/white (the vibration of these colors are associated with the crown chakra).
Drink plenty of purifying water and eat clean, unprocessed, natural foods.
Aromatherapy scent: Gurjum, myrrh, rosewood, cedarwood and jasmine.
Power stone: Celestite, danburite, blue sapphire, moldavite and peacock ore.
Which form of chakra balancing resonated with you the most?
Feel free to share below your discoveries as well as any recommendations you can make regarding healing each of the seven chakras.
It was the first day of school, 6th grade band and my best friend and I were checking out the room for cute boys. Jamie and his best friend caught my eye and I mentioned it to her. It’s true I dated his best friend first and he dated mine, we were just kids. We eventually swapped and dated each other. He was funny, the class clown and he was so full of energetic life. Being so shy and reserved myself, I was really attracted to his energy. Our first kiss was after school at the front gateway among a hoard of other students pushing to get to their buses. We “dated” each other off and on through middle school. In 7th grade I started having a reoccurring dream about Jamie. I never told anybody until many years later for fear they would say I was just a foolish child. It was a vision of us married and to my 12-year-old self we were much older, I guessed in our thirties. I saw our general body shapes, we were taller, wider and I wasn’t sure Jamie had hair. We looked oddly different as adults and we had several children, although I can’t remember the exact amount it was more than three. In the vision our kids were also older, close in age, and they were all going to high school together. I could not see their faces even though after several of these dreams I seemed to be trying really hard; I wanted to know what our children would look like! Overall, the dream became a comfort to me in an extremely difficult time of abuse in my life; it became a beacon of secret hope for my future. The message was loud and clear: I HAD a future and it was a happy one.
In 8th grade and through the early parts of high school, I didn’t see Jamie much, but he lived closed to my grandparents house and would occasionally skateboard there to say hi and show off. I felt so calm in this secret knowledge that we would end up together one day when the time was right. And even though I had a serious boyfriend in high school and we did not share classes or the same social circles, Jamie and I had these intense moments between us throughout the halls between classes. We would both secretly follow each other taking the long routes around, just to be near each other for as many minutes as possible, never saying a word and only sometimes catching each other’s eyes. We thought it was our secret world, but eventually my boyfriend must have noticed the looks and felt our energy. It was loud enough that he pulled Jamie to the side one day and told him to stay away from me! I didn’t know this until a few years later and Jamie never was good at listening to orders…
Fast forward to 20 years later, we did marry and a lot of life was lived. Our 4 children were beginning 12th, 11th, 9th and 4th grades and they were posed in our driveway for the obligatory first day of school photo. I was stunned by the vision of them standing there; the dream came rushing back to me in an instant. I realized it had come true down to every detail, what we looked like…how happy we were. I immediately called Jamie and said, “You’re never going to believe what just happened, this is the year of the dream”! He knew exactly what I meant. It was a very profound moment of synchronicity.
Volleyball in the Keys 1990
The summer before 11th grade and my possessive, older boyfriend had graduated and gone off to boot camp when Jamie ran into my Mom at the local shopping plaza late in the night. She always loved Jamie and told him “that guy” was gone for the summer and to come rescue me. She gave him our new address, which was fairly close to his house. One day he showed up on his bike and we talked out in the apartment courtyard. He kept saying he wanted me and that I knew we were meant to be together. I acted like I didn’t know what he was talking about, but I knew and I also knew he was right. I felt some kind of honorable obligation to my boyfriend, so I initially fought it. But, as in all things regarding Jamie I was powerless to his loving demands. The simple lesson in this is your heart recognizes the truth whenever you hear it.
We spent the most amazing summer together swimming in the lake by our house and listening to music. At the end of the summer, I asked Jamie to give me some space to try to break up with the military boyfriend. As I mentioned, he was possessive and I was fearful of him stalking me and just not taking it well. I also told Jamie that under no circumstances was he to contact me until he was done with any affiliation to his neighborhood gang… That just wasn’t him and he had no business there and he needed the time to sort that out. It was a hard line for me. He also wasn’t attending school; but I knew his potential and that this was a case of “one step at a time.”
In the first months of 11th grade, I was still trying to figure out how to break up with that guy. I knew it was over for a long time, but I was very scared. One day at lunch Jamie’s best friend from middle school sat next to me and said he was under strict orders from Jamie to go to the school’s payphone and to put me on the line. This was pretty laughable at the time, 1- Jamie was too much of a jokester to be making “demands” and 2- His best friend who was still trying to “play” me was the one bringing it to me. After some negotiating I finally decided I needed to hear this. I remember his first words to me were “It’s time.” That might have been the first truly sincere, non-joking thing he’d ever said to me and in that moment I knew we would both move heaven and earth to make it work. He convinced me to drive to his house that day. I knew he was shooting pool and looking out the windows at my car sitting idle at the stop sign and I wanted him to come out and prove his words. He didn’t come outside, so I drove away without looking back. I was never one to make it easy for him…
“Here is a little history of my life. At the age of 10, I met a girl who would someday be my wife; her name is Shannon. I knew from the moment that I laid my eyes upon her that we would share most of our lives together. This was my first experience with the divine connection, this feeling of knowing. It was a feeling of such strength there was no questioning it.“